It’s 2:30 a.m., the house is still, my husband is snoring like a freight train, and our son is deep in his superhero dreams. Meanwhile, I'm wide awake, my mind doing the cha-cha with a thousand thoughts, ideas, and projects. It’s now 2:45 a.m., and I’ve got a fitness class at 6:30 a.m.
Will I make it?
Probably not.
Damn.
To know me is to know that I’m a collector of thoughts and ideas. They swirl around in my head until they morph into some written piece, a creative project, or another wild dream that keeps my engine running.
These thoughts are my lifeblood, but let’s be real—sometimes they’re chaotic little gremlins. Ideas? I’ve got plenty. Execution? That’s where the chaos hits. Not because I’m lazy, but because time and resources are always in short supply, and juggling everything without dropping the ball feels impossible.
So, here I am, balancing a 9-5 job, a creative business, wifely duties, and motherhood. Some days, I’m just trying not to drown in the sea of tasks and ideas ping-ponging in my brain. I’m annoyed that my short documentary isn’t finished. Pissed that the third installment of my children's book is still in draft mode. And don’t get me started on those screenwriting competitions—ten rejections and counting. Yet, it’s this ebb and flow that keeps me fighting for my creative life because it’s the only thing that makes my soul sing. It’s my anchor in this wild, crazy world.
The struggle is real, but so is my passion.
Yet, through all of this frustration, I'm trying with every bit of my soul to give myself grace, to understand that every little step forward is still progress. I'm reminding myself to rest, to breathe, and to celebrate the small victories. It’s okay to take a break. It’s okay to recharge. And self-care? Oh, honey, it’s non-negotiable. Whether it’s sipping tea in the morning, squeezing in a workout, or just sitting in blessed silence, these moments keep me sane. They remind me that while I’m out here chasing dreams, I’ve got to take care of the vessel holding them.
Balancing family, career, and creative chaos isn't easy, but it's the journey that makes it worthwhile.
To anyone out there juggling a million roles and chasing big dreams, know this: you’re not alone.
We’re in this together, riding the roller coaster of highs and lows, triumphs and setbacks. Keep pushing, keep striving, and most importantly, keep believing in yourself. Your dreams are worth it.
Every sleepless night, every moment of doubt. Because at the end of the day, it’s not just about achieving those dreams—it’s about who I/YOU become in the process.
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